day 27 - I Feel Like A Failure
It’s Day 27 of 333 days of conscious crafting.
And unfortunately, I’m blogging after a gap of a few days. No excuses. Live happens and my ability to stay on course um… didn’t work. I know failure is necessary. But I have that voice in my head that is angry that I dropped the ball and pretty much saying “I told you so, loser.” It’s grim, I know.
I’m sure most of you reading this (if anyone is lol) is thinking, okay girl, calm down. It’s not the end of the world. But my challenge was to craft even a stitch every day and blog about it. And I didn’t do that Sunday or Monday and my only reasoning is that I got super excited about a bunch of stuff and then failed at it back to back and it completely killed my zestiness. My dinner for the family Sunday was edible, but a failure. I’m learning how to day trade (stop laughing!!) and guess what, I’m not great at it. I’ve been trading in the market for decades and I’m pretty bad at it and I really want to get better. But I hate losing and I need to deal with that better.
I guess I’m one of those people who thinks I should be at least decent at everything I do. Maybe all of this is going to be a really good lesson in humility and temperance.
So today I…
Tried to mitigate my emotional response. It’s hard.
Knit on J’s hat.
Breakout session tomorrow????